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I don't want to be 25.

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2Corinthians 6:14: “Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness?”

REALLY!?  REEEEEAAALLLYYYY?

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You're a Seeker. You're kind and courteous and a great support to your friends. You have a wonderfully warm energy that is an inspiration to others. A sensitive soul with an expressive nature, you tend to be quite a romantic at heart. Sometimes you love nothing more than escaping into your very own dreamworld. Spontaneous new experiences can be really inspiring to you and you like exploring your creative side from time to time. Sometimes it can feel like you've got a bit too much on your plate and you could use some help lightening the load. Don't forget that you're not alone. You've got an amazing support network of friends, just remember to shout out when you need them. When it comes to improving things in your life, why would you say no to extra cash? It would be great to treat the family whenever you feel like it. The trick is to be disciplined about budgeting. If you stay on top of your finances, you'll feel a lot more secure and probably save a bit too. It's important to remember to tap into your inner strength and to believe in yourself. Take on new challenges and stay stimulated so you remain enthusiastic and inspired by life. As a Seeker, you get excited by new ideas. You like adventure and original experiences that stimulate and challenge your status quo. Stay inspired with a rich mix of activities, and find time for hobbies that allow you to explore your creative side. Learn to recognize when you need variety in your life, and then incorporate it into your daily plans. You're an intellectual at heart. You value academic study and like the feeling you get when you learn something new. Now it's about continuing to grow and develop in life. It will work wonders for your self-esteem.

Feeling at ease with one another is the foundation of a long-lasting relationship. Knowing that you can just relax and be yourself is essential As a Warm Heart, you're very down-to-earth when it comes to love. It is often the simplest pleasures that bring the greatest joy. Your partner is probably one of your best friends in the world, and you have a love that feels safe and secure. It's all about strong foundations based on trust and understanding. You are a deeply loyal person, and you expect the same from your partner. A true relationship is about committing to share your life and leaning on each other in good times and bad.

Relationship tips:

So you're a Warm Heart but what tips can we give for staying connected with your best friend and lover?

  1. Keep the magic alive. Light hundreds of candles and spend a magical evening in your own beautiful candlelit cocoon...
  2. Curl up on the couch with the Sunday papers and coffee. Nothing beats being able to spend your free time with your best friend and lover. You love it when you feel so close that you're like two peas in a pod.
  3. Do something different. Rent roller skates and wobble around the park hanging on to one another for balance!
  4. Be yourself. Remember that your partner loves you for who you are, so don't ever feel the need to put on an act.

You burst into life in the mornings like a rocket. There's so much to get done and you have the energy to do it. You believe in a balanced approach to living a healthy lifestyle. It's all about moderation. You enjoy exercise and eating healthily, but you're not going to let it take over and run your life. You manage to fit physical activity around your everyday activities, and your happy-go-lucky attitude means you won't stress about it too much. You know that a couple of missed gym sessions won't make a huge difference to how you feel overall. It's definitely not worth worrying about, that's for sure.

You're so laid-back, you're almost horizontal! You like to take life as it comes and enjoy all it has to offer. Your practical style reflects your down-to-earth, relaxed attitude. Why stress out over finding heels to match your dress when you could be out having fun in the sun and living life to the fullest? In fact, sun-kissed skin and surf-tousled hair are the perfect accessories for your look. Just make sure you don't forget the SPF!



It's wuteva
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I have a job!  I'm now a waitress!  What an interesting experience.  Last night was first night and it was actually really easy.  The atmosphere is really laid back, and nothing is really all that professional (which secretly kills me inside, but I'll survive).  The people I work with are...pretty okay.  A little strange, but I guess that's how things are whenever you start at a new place.  I'm going to do well.  Last night I made bank in tips, granted this means my paycheck will be so small, so most of my pay will come from tips, but that's okay.  I'll only be working 2 days during the week, which is great, then I can still do school but still make sure I have a little bit of money to take care of things with.  So, new job = win.

School has been good.  I got destroyed on my Government test.  That sucks.  But I rocked my Philosophy test, 96%!  I never do that well!  So, that's nice.  As long as I understand the material it's great.  The professor who teaches it does a great job of making sure the information makes sense.  Tuba has also been good.  I'm playing surprisingly well.  I'm playing in some small ensemble stuff in Wind Ensemble too, that the top player should be playing, but he pissed off a bunch of people, so now I'm getting some of his gigs.  I won't complain, because it's more good experience, it's just so nerve-wracking, because he's much better than I am. 

Let's see.  2 weeks of school.  Then I got to Texas for a tuba convention where the tuba/euph ensemble will be playing.  That will be funsies.  Then the next week I'm in California for Mandarins!  I can't wait for that!  I also got a an awesome tax refund, so I'm thinking about going out for the April camp, but it's right before finals start...so we'll see.  Then I have 6 more weeks of school after the March camp, and then it's time to do the drum corps thing!  I can't wait.  Good stuff.  As long as I keep doing well in school I am a happy camper.

Life is good.  And I'm a pretty happy girl.

I'm in love, alright, with my crazy beautiful life
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WOW.  Life is a silly, strange, wonderfully painful thing.

So let's see last week we had 3 snows days which created a 5 day weekend, it was beautiful.  So necessary, I was able to practice piano and tuba a lot and catch up on work and sleep and un-stress myself.  School this week was also great because I only went 3 days.  Wednesday night through this morning I was in Hot Springs, AR for the All-State convention.  So, it's just like all-state back in Arizona, except they have 3 bands, which is awesome and it's a whole long event and convention.  And then there is the AIB Arkansas Intercollegiate Band, which is where schools send in some of their good players to represent all of the colleges in the state of Arkansas.  So I got chosen to play in this ensemble,  It was okay.  Really, a lot of the people sucked so it wasn't the greatest ensemble.  But what was great was...I had a phenomenal time!  I bonded with the people that came from my school, I hung out with the faculty afterwards, and had just such a great fucking time.  That was...the first time I've had such a blast since I've been out here.  It was so great.  And I'm so pumped to make things happen out here.  Because, while I may not be able to change things around the school, I can represent myself well and I can inspire others so that maybe one day, these people will be great people too.

2 great songs I found this weekend... Fuck You by Cee Lo Green and Crazy Beautiful Life by Ke$ha.

Stuff has been good though.  Both my cats have a cold though!  They won't stop sneezing, poor babies.  I can't wait to move out, because my roommates have no concept of cleaning up after themselves.  I'm really enjoying school and playing tuba.  I'm optimistic for the future and I can't wait.

Life is good :)

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Jill suggested I update livejournal, so, I will do so.  I should probably try to update this morning.  I just get really busy, I have about 4 hours to myself every day and between homework and skype, there's not a lot of extra time, ha.

I'm in a terrible mood right now, so this won't be anything interesting.

We had 3 snow days.  Holy crap.  It was nice though, definitely needed the time to chill out and breathe.  This next week on Thurs and Fri I'm going to the collegiate all-state band meeting, thing.  I don't know what it is, but basically I was chosen to represent UCA for tubas, and it's a bunch of the best players in the state that get together and play music.  Like All-State in HS...but in college.  We're going to Hot Springs, which I've heard is a fun little town.  We'll see!

I've been playing a lot.  That scale exam thing I was complaining about a while back is almost under my fingers, which is great, because it's been something I've been working at here and there for almost 5 years, so that'll be a nice accomplishment.  Although I should be embarrassed it took my 5 years to learn 36 scales....that's kind of silly.  But, oh well.  Lesson learned.  Play more, suck less.

I am so bothered by music fraternities/sororities.  All they do is distract people, who shouldn't be distracted in the first place, from school and focus on silly social events instead.  I don't even see the work that they do.  I don't see receptions after recitals, I don't see shit.  I see their silly meetings, where it's a big giant hang out.  But whatever.  My only complaint is that, people who rush, forget about the real reason in college, which is to learn, and do well and graduate.  But, oh well.  I guess I did that to an extent too, since I've been in school for so long.  But, oh well, I can justify myself by saying I'm not a dumbass. 

Cats are good.  They always brighten my mood.  I spend a good deal of time taking baths and relaxing and reading my book, which isn't for school.  It's nice and refreshing. 

I'm excited to go out to California again in just over a month.  I can't wait to work with my kids again.  I can't wait to get back to drum corps. 

And, that's about all I've got for now.  I'll try to update this a little more often...no promises though!

Two is Better than One - Boys Like Girls
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I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

Mental Focus
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I never would have thought that my inability to calm down and focus would be the downfall of my tuba playing. 

We're doing this thing called "The Scale Exam" Basically it's a series of scales, major then down a 3rd to play that key in harmonic minor and melodic minor then down a third to the next major and so on.  Basically it's a series of 36 scales.  Which, doesn't seem THAT bad, especially if you know them.  But the fact that you're brain has to be focused the entire time, and your chops don't get a break.  Holy shit.  I can't do it.  By the way, no mistakes or you fail.  And technically it's supposed to be at 168 bpm, but since we all failed terribly last semester, we're breaking it down, starting slow and building it.

I just can't figure out what I need to do in order to suceed.  I'm think meditation/breathing exercises will help calm my mind down.  But I came home to practice because it's much quieter than the practice rooms, and I still can't get far. 

Anyway, just bitching.  Back to practicing.

Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri
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I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And learn to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
 
 

Finally winding down
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It seems like since Thanksgiving break I've been going 200 mph.  I think I had a total of 9 performances in 6 days, which was exhausting, but a great experience!  UCA hosted it's first Tuba Day, and while I did nothing to help put it together, it was great to help run it and attend the master classes.  It's also always a joy to have Pat Sheridan around, he turns any bad day completely around.  My tuba playing has gotten WORLDS better, and it's all thanks to TT, that man has turned my playing around, and has helped inspire me to practice more.  It's been great.  Although, I still dislike a lot of the people I'm around in my classes, there are a few that are coming around and I may even begin to be friends with them.  Ha.  We'll see.

Anyway.  Monday, Tursday and Wednesday consist of my juries and 6 finals.  Then Wednesday, right after I finish my ear training final, I start my drive to Arizona!  Sadly, I brought my truck in yesterday to get an oil change and get the tires rotated, and they found a nail in my tire.  Apparently the nail is too close to the edge for them to feel comfortable with patching, so I have to find a new tired or a used one to get me to AZ until my dad can check it out and I can get to Fletchers, since I have a warranty with them.

Over break I plan on...not doing anything.  going to Annie's wedding and and hanging out with friends.  But aside from that, nothing.  Which will be easy, because I really don't have any money, at all, anyway. 

I'm watching a TV show on Japanese food.  Oh, I miss Japan.  I want to move there and teach music.  That would be awesome.

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